My Date this weekend

Loneliness is a strange thing...it can be really difficult to handle...With Somesh away almost every month, loneliness started to creep in slowly. I handled it intially thinking, I got work and I got Prakriti...I would definitely be able to manage.

Logistics, Administration, Finances and Entertainment...these were things I brought into my life with such ease that none of these were an issue to handle.

The boredom started to creep in last week, when I realised that life was becoming mundane. I was looking for that zing in my life.

The boredom would not leave me though I have lots of friends and acquaintances around me. There was something amiss. I did not take time to figure out that it was Somesh. I started to miss everything about him....his silence, his laziness, his drop of a hat plans to go out and binge, his moments with Prakriti and of course his moments with me(sigh!!).

So I decided to go out on a date...with Somesh..so what if he is not here....I dressed in my old jeans ( the high came instantly after I managed to get into them!) and a T shirt, dropped Prakriti at her creche and stood outside the YWCA hostel in Madame Cama Road.

Ten Years back I would spend endless minutes waiting for Somesh to arrive and take me out on a date....today I rewound some of those moments together....

I took a cab to drive us(and im using "us" for a reason!!) to Marine Drive, stopped by looking for some bhutta..but I guess the season is not so right!...Walked all through the marine drive stopping and smiling at the young couples sitting(how silly is that!)...till I noticed the double decker criusing along....i hopped in only to be dropped at the churchgate station(did not quite look at the route and the number!!!) and well..took the train to Bandra....the place we spent most of our time back then....

Having done the Bandra bit, I decided to enter a book store(remembering the "oh no" look on his face), picked up some of my favourites and like a good girl came back home..completely tanned and with a headache..but no I was not tired at all...infact I could feel this new energy in me...and a voice that kept telling me..."you got to do this more often!"

When I finally met my daughter that evening...she held me and said..."mama you looking so ganda.....but I love you!"...

.....That instant I thanked God....He gave me memories so dear that I can relive them whenever I want, He gave me an angel, to make me feel special for what I am and He gave me my soul mate so loving that all I can ever do is simply Love....

Boredom and Loneliness....what is that?